The False Blog

I haven’t written for a while. I’ve got a story to write, in fact. I had a dream one day and it was sort of exciting and dramatic, so I thought it might be a good idea to write that down. Rarely does one dream of a fairly good story and remember it after waking up.

Problem is, I’ve got no time recently. It’s like the time has disappeared. I’m quite frustrated. And I’ve got loads of homework! Fours days of holidays, and the teachers give away homework like mad. Like four days are a big deal. :/

Lastly, Ms Pig gave me a stupid presentation about the Chinese poet, eh, I don’t think he’s got an English name. I have to talk for 5 minutes. Winkey’s worse, she’s gotta talk 10 minutes. I don’t know what’s gonna happen that day. I’m not even sure when it is. I think it’s Tuesday though.

BTW I just found five spams in the comments of this blog. Don’t worry, you’re not going to see it because some kinda smart system filtered them. Very smart indeed. I’m satisfied. I remember I had one spam posted for everyone to see in MSN Spaces.

In the last post, I didn’t say almost the whole house – that’s my mum and sister and I – are sick. Yeah, that’s 3/4, or three quarters of the people in the house. I mentioned my problems. My sister was sick first, in fact. She has cough. She infected me. My mum has a cold. Not sure if my sister infected her.

I have been sick for a few days already. A cold, then sore throat, cough, slight fever, headade. It’s a flu, overall. I went to see the doctor today. Some medicines, of course. And the doctor looked at my eye (my mum told him to), my eye is very red. So he gave me eye drops. And then you might remember I said that I would ask a doctor about my ears. But I didn’t. I haven’t told my mum about this problem, so I didn’t want to tell when I was seeing the doctor. Stupid me, isn’t it?

I get pain in my ears much often than before now. You should remember my old post at the MSN Spaces here. I quote myself here:

My ears don’t feel quite well today. Yesterday night I listened to music for hours by earphones. I know I was wrong. But it was late at night (2 AM) and I couldn’t turn on the speakers.

This morning during the assembly, Ms Pig spoke so loudly. No one was as loud as her. I stood right under the speaker, so I heard all the sounds. It was awful. I felt pain in my right ear (the speaker was at my right). I can feel it even now. But maybe it’s just my imagination.

This two things add up, and I’m going to be deaf someday. Really.

The latest news is, not only is my right ear feeling painful, but also my left ear. Though usually it’s still the right ear.

As the problem is so serious, I did a little research a few days ago. I found this website contains information about a disease "ruptured eardrum".

Let’s look at the symtoms from the website:

• Sharp, sudden ear pain or discomfort
• Clear, pus-filled or bloody drainage from your ear
• Sudden decrease in ear pain followed by drainage from that ear
• Hearing loss
• Ringing in your ear (tinnitus)

Number 1, I have that. Two and three, I don’t think so; nothing went out from my ears. Number 4 is not easy to notice if it’s a small loss. Number 5, I’m not sure what the ringing is like, but generally I don’t hear anything funny.

Next, we study the causes.

• Middle ear infection (otitis media)
• Airplane ear (barotrauma)
• Injury to your ear (acoustic trauma)
• Foreign objects in your ear
• Loud, sudden noise

Now I’m not sure what middle ear infection is. The secord one, airplane ear. I’ve never been on a plane. Third, this one is quite likely. Fourth, I think this one is quite similar to the third one, so yeah, this is llikely too. Number 5 – this is what I’m thinking – loud, sudden noise when I turned the volume of the computer too high accidentally. Not to mention Ms Pig, whose noise was continuous, which causes more harm, I imagine.

Next page, risk factors.

• Fluid buildup from middle ear infection
• Cleaning your ear with small objects to clear away earwax buildup or blockage
• Excessive scratching of your ear due to itchy ears

Actually I don’t understand what "risk factor" is. But look at point 2, I do that sometimes.

Then, when to seek medical advice?

Seek medical care if you have pain or swelling in your ear or drainage from your ear. Discharge of blood or pus may be a sign that your eardrum has ruptured. See your doctor immediately if you develop fever or headache, or if the pain in your ear becomes severe.

You know, on Thursday, I felt a little pain in my head. Next time, when I go to the doctor because of something else, I will probably ask him to check my ears too. Maybe there’s a hole in my eardrum. 

But then on another page it says "A ruptured eardrum usually isn’t serious and often heals on its own without complications." Indeed? This is all I can hope for now. Except there’s really nothing wrong with my ears.

I have realised that my writing is getting worse. Everything I write, like blogs, compositions at school, are bad. I’ll try to list out my problems.

1. The style is too dull. It’s always the same, which makes it very boring.
2. I have no vocabulary. I’m always using easy words, easy phrases.
3. The sentence structures are usually the same.
4. I sometimes find it hard to use words to express myself. (Like I couldn’t find words for the last point.)
5. The ideas are boring too. I don’t elaborate points.

So there are so many problems! Not small ones, they’re big! You know, I wanna ask, is there any way I can improve?

She went to some kinda camp today with all her friends (all Primary 4 students actually). She’s so small, just Primary 4. We went to the camp only when we were Primary 6. I don’t know why her school tells them to go. (And she’ll have camp in P5 and 6.)

Anyway, she’s gone now, and I have a few days without her. Much quieter, I should say. I don’t find it’s boring because I’m at my Mac anyway.

I think I’ve lost my Chem Activity Book. That’s so bad. I’ve found everywhere but I can’t find it. He needs it tomorrow. I don’t know what I can do. It’s the first two lessons. I must get to school early to borrow it from TK. That’s so difficult to me. Wonder if I can get it from 4C.

I didn’t have time for the past few days. Here is the final roundup of the UT.

Not many papers were given to me after the first day. Something like Chinese or English listening. Not good at all.

In conclusion, I did very bad. I didn’t revise much. I even stayed in front of the computer all day. That’s always bad.

There is no subject that I did well in. All are awful. I don’t know how I will end up like if I carry on like this. C’s and D’s for the CE, probably.

I was heart-broken. First it was Chemistry. I didn’t expect it to be so low. There were many careless mistakes. MC was very, very bad. It breaks my heart.

I didn’t fail Physics, all right. It’s even higher than Chem. (Of course that’s still very low.) I still feel bad about it. There were mistakes I made because I didn’t bring the calculator. I regret not asking the teacher to take the calculator from my bag at that time. Now everyone would say it was foolish of me. But at that time I was doing those Math all right. They weren’t very difficult, I was just wasting some time.

The real heartbreaker was English. Guess it’s because I had some hope for it. But those speaking tasks were awful. I missed so many points. Reading is not good either. I feel so bad, and when that Mr Fong asked me "Am I too fast?" (The class was checking answers.) I didn’t want to answer him. So stupid. Couldn’t he wait for me to recover from the pain?

Math is my comfort. Though my result is not very bright, it’s decent and good. ADM is not bad either (in my standard). Fanny said it was bad. How very frank of her. But I don’t let that break my heart.

I have been saying I’m heartbroken. That’s true, sort of. I even cried a little bit when I was at home. I guess I’ve changed. Think of that Chem test, and these UT, I feel very bad inside. I wouldn’t feel these kind of thing before. Growing up, eh?

Westlife says "try again". That’s the song I thought of when I had my Phy paper. Following me all day. The lyrics:

Hush now don’t you cry
There will be a better day
I promise you
We can work it out
But only if you let me know
What’s on your mind

Baby, you thought it was forever
Through any kind of weather
But some day you will find what your searching for

Try again
Never stop believing
Try Again
Don’t give up on your love
Stumble and fall
It’s the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again

So, lie down, let it go
Hey, you will never be alone
I promise you
If you can’t fight the feeling (Oh yeah)
Surrender in you heart
Remember love will set you free

Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But some day you will find what your searching for

Try again
Never stop believing
Try Again
Don’t give up on your love
Stumble and fall
It’s the heart of it all
When you fall down (down)
Just try again

Baby when a heart is crying
It sometimes feels like dying
The tear drops fall like rain

Baby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But some day you will find what you’re searching for

Try again
Never stop believing
Try Again
Don’t give up on your love

Try again
Never stop believing
Try Again
Don’t give up on your love
Stumble and fall
It’s the heart of it all
When you fall down
Just try again

I’ll try again I hope. I’m never hard-working for exams. I hope "stumble and fall" is not the heart of exams.

Hi, my blog. Haven’t been here for a long time.

Exams are coming. Just can’t believe it. It seems so distant even now. I don’t know what to revise. I hate BIK. Maybe Math or Phy or a bit Chi. Then leave BIK on Sunday.

I hate you exams.

But hey, look at the Eng exam! No speaking! Hooray! Hasn’t been a thing this good for a long time! Even though I can’t be the first, at least I won’t fall like last time!

I gotta think a lot about Chem and Phy. It’s good to get me thinking.

My mum found out the lines in my Math exercise book. She asked me if I got punished, I said yeah. Why? Because I made a tiny mistake in the exercise. Who punished you? Kwan Chi Chau. Oh, Kwan Sir, he’s like that? Yeah. How come your handwriting is so ugly? He accepted my work, that’s all that matters.

Then my sister had a look and said she couldn’t read a word. "I … something something …"

I’ve been trying to hide that from anybody in the house, but now it’s been found out. No harm done. It’s OK.

I’ll try to take a pic of my exercise book later when no one’s watching (that means when everybody’s out). It’ll be a good shot I hope.

Took the shots and uploaded them to Flickr. Four photos totally. Bad shots. It was 11 am but no one except me (and my dad who had already left home) was awake, so I couldn’t turn on the lights.